Host-Hostel .Hospital-Hospitality

Entanglement, intertwined bonds of relationship

Territorial control of Space ,or sense of Responsibility for Events.

Mock Combat,     Conflict,                 Ritualistic Competition 

Adversarial Attention. - Sensitivity   -  Pain – Need –Comfort

I began this Summer without the ribbon of the May Pole in My Hand. But a carefully tailored  plastic Picc line inserted in a Vein in my Arm, and run up to my Heart.

Peripherally inserted central catheter

I was to have daily Infusions of an Anti Biotic to Kill the Microbial Life I had become Host to for the last four years..

exaggerating a essential Tremor and effecting my sense of Touch from a Distance .

Temporary accommodations were given of My Insides to Medicine and Science

A Great Act of Personal  Trust.

By Midsummer The Foreign Object had been removed ,

I was assured that My Guests were all Dead.

I may be still feeling the damage they made,   It takes Time to Mend.

I was Completely  Clueless as to what could have precipitated the Violent Warp Spasms that sent Me on  My First and second Ambulance Trips to the Hospital.

The Hurt was so focused and specific, so severe and direct,

Yet I had experienced no Injury

The Hospital  is a place of Hope and Help.Drama and Tragedy

Doing It’s Best to anticipate the needs and care of the diverse  community it serves,

I was in Need of special Care,

they found  a room for Me to share

on the second floor.

Almost two weeks and two Roommates later’

After Every conceivable form of Testing and Imaging available for lease by My Healthcare Provider  the source of the infection was not determined .

After three negative blood cultures,I had a Picc line put in so I could get out of the Hospital.

I love Home

I had responded to the Antibiotic treating a different life form the presence of golden clusters of  grapes, not the cork screw crazy Makers

,A different Enemy, I am told

Somewhere inside Me

Three times a day I slow push the Medicine kept in the Refrigerator, taken out a half hour before.

I hate that I cannot mediate this internal conflict myself. Requiring outside assistance.

Odd to put such a willful expression to being Unwelcoming .Inhospitable

To distancing myself from my Discomfort, disassociating from my circumstance.

The connection,and conflict involved with Free Will and Destiny.

What is infectious?

Life Drama and Location, Borders and Boundaries

Caring and Attention and Spirit

Kindness and cruelty, subject and object

Elements of Story that we are bound to, part of.

Travelers needing rest

interwoven

Holding on,trying to Help

Our Place to Be.

Infrequency of the Unambiguous. Consciousness and Coincidence

Awareness is overrated,

We don’t have to have Know it to Get it.

We can Feel it

We can appeal to our own unknowing

Lifted up by our lower selves

See Below and Above,in the Sky. chased by  a pair of Song Birds

North to South Over our My Head

What it Means, I don’t Know,

Flying  across My Back Yard.

Woo Food Home

The Wisdom of the Innocent

The ability to see the Future is not as unusual as the ability to Share unwanted News without consequence for the Medium.

There is great Psychic power in Not Knowing

Not Pretend understanding, Honest Fooling around that leads to Discovery.

 

How that Discovery is applied,How the Vision is Manifest, is Where the notion of Mastery,Controller, Director, Distributer empower/ exploit the Simple, Raw Talent',

Framing, presentation,Message, meaning

The Old Guild Gangs, intelligentsias ,Smarty Pants know it all's ,

thought full rationalists,Art Snobs, Myths of Meritocracy and social institutions.

Interpreters , Learned Folk

“ Why not Excellence?”

Healthy Natural Activity should be Work and Play.

I feel that it is the same with the Supernatural and Spiritual.

Like Breathing. Keep it Safe and Respectful,

Jugglers of goal oriented endeavors and balanced Awareness of the immediacy of the Moment , and enjoying it.

The peculiar contributions of the many unique Others around us.

Paranormal Economics  is not a simplified self directed shell game, getting what you ask for.

The Joke is in the Clueless,

Finding the Humor in the Game

 

Make Believe and the Belief of Making Soul Sky Soil Skill

Funny, that the roots of my practice may be in Games as much as Greens.

Life and what we Make of it.

Fate,Chance, Luck and Drama, the belief that there are unseen Directors, Weird Rules, foreshadowed Outcomes.

Playing Dice and Cards,Imaginary Friends,Show and Tell  .Crafting a good Time.

  The experiences of  youth are more relevant , more supportive of the Magic that We share today than Ancient Belief, Popular Occult Fantasy,or Fragmentary Post pagan Secularists and Social Media.

There is a difference between Illusion and deception, our Play acting and who”s having fun ; or wanting to have Fun,who is fooling who and why? Claiming to Know or be what you are not

Role Playing Games put an emphasis on character development,through situational challenge,Defeating adversaries,getting Treasure.

self Improvement is Self Centered in that it seeks Reward or recognition.

The Desired Outcome or Goal is a Wish we make.and seek assistance with.

Free Study Programs and Clergy Credentials have changed the emphasis on the selfless Sacrifice as Sacred Giving, to Service to Societal expectation and organizational Administration.A  Spectacle, A Race, A Contest or worse,

A reversal of polarities, providing and provisions Imagination,A Crisis of Hosting.

Expectation and the means to make it happen.  The Need for a  Thousand voluntary  Heroes, Hundreds of Game masters and referees,Teams, Clubs, Leagues.

Sport and Art

Out on a limb,

Hanging with the hopeful fruit,

I,

My Self, am not an Apple.

Still playing Spiritual Hide and Go Seek!

 

My Toes in the Tree  , Attention getting Me

Reach, Relate,Respect

resonance and resemblance , the grip of glove and grape

circumference ceremony circles circumstance complimentary compositions coordination collective cooperative cyclic cypher communication connection

climax and completion  collapse,conclusion crisis? The passing of the Noon of the Year!

I have a hard time with good byes, I become very attached to Things .

I hate to feel that it is finished or over.

Growing, developing,Brightness

Our first seasonal conditioning as children is Schooling.

We are indoctrinated into an ordered regime with distinct beginnings and endings.

Recess     ,Free Play,       Time Off,      Reward,  a learning environment, a safe place.

Summer was the end of the school year, graduations,vacations.School is out.

Expansive adventure possibility,questions hope and potential. A different World with different Rules. Traveling ,Festivals and Fairs

learning and earning .expectations and wishes,Outcome anxiety

A repeated lesson,

Moving on, Maturing

Time is not only linear it is vertical

Experience accumulates below as well as behind.

Deposits with weight and pressure of the past,of what has been.,

Each generation lives in a different time climate , limited by the acceptable norms of the day.The conditions of their Season, Crop or Classroom.

It is always as it is, never again as it was.

Patterns remain persistent in the process, a changing location,a different line up,.Hosting and teaching, performing and producing.

Ritual and Recipe , Reproduction, Religion and Repetition. Limbic Liminality,Lucidity and Liquidity

I find it is best to assume that I have an audience I am unaware of.

I find it is often a matter of who is paying or giving Me their Attention, and less to do with Whom I may be addressing.

There is something in response and responsibility, an accountability for recreation, reconstruction, and regeneration.                             The ripples that we make  return.

There are perpetuators of folk formulas of failure, repeated patterns, replicating results,

Considering control and mastery the objective in a competitive existence.

The Nature of the World, The Way of Life, The Way Things Work.

Socially reinforced behaviors and actions, Culturally  conditioned movements,groupings and gatherings take on a form of shared reality.Group Identity,collective unawareness.

A homogenization of Imagination and fantasy ,expression and conception are limited and focused on perpetuating an expectation of award or benefit.

Compounding confusion in comparison and  commercial  commodification of the cosmos, credit and credentials, the literal and liable, we are caught up in quantifying and qualifying, forgetting that we are never talking to ourselves, while others are listening

Popularity is not  a rubric

Shallow . reflective  Surface

Continuations Correspondences  Collaborations, contributions Creative and Procreative.

What comes with the territory

With Love