Wednesday, February 21, 2024

right relationship authentic community


                                                                   "She flew for Forty Feet." 

Sounded like the opening line of the poem written and read at the memorial by her grandmother,
I think...

I received a text of the tragedy from my wife on the bus coming home from the city. 
Recording my omens from my new moon ritual in the morning and contemplating online class with local Teacher DR. John Beaulieu, concerning felt sense and its connection to meaning.
                                                                     Somatic Resonance
I had recently submitted my continuing education to the ADF Clergy and was about to attend the third Dark Moon Rite a Live Zoom ritual that is not recorded,
I think...

The next day my wife shows me the picture from the online edition of the local Newspapers obituaries.
" Wow, I don't think I ever saw her hair cut short."
Cause of death, hit and run while heading south on 9w was struck by an unidentified southbound vehicle from behind while walking with a friend from college on a day visit home to see her mother and sister. 

It was six years since being on the familiar grounds of WDS for the candlelight vigil.
Our son joined us on the most bitter cold gusty days of this winter, to the place he graduated from.
Warmly greeted, given candle and matches with the suggestion to light it back home later we proceeded to a fire that had been burning for some time, built and tended by someone I did not recognize with natural fallen limbs broken and placed in challenging winds and cruel circumstances.

Corelated coincidence in the different buildings and interconnected pathways of campus and the lives of independent fleshy collections of components traveling through space and time.
Connective tissue - tension-stress on bonds- points of connection-differential concordance
perception is participatory resonant responses within nonlinear field relations implicitly intimate.

Trauma is a dissonance of harmonic flow within the body in association with polarized anterior-posterior axis structurally and or functionally responding spontaneously to adapting system equilibrium.

If the Soul is the vibrational signature of the individual, then maybe schools and learning are where we tune into our inner selves, immersed in a perceptive field. A living matrix of conductive coherence.

Place of potential patterns of possibilities particles of personhoods purposeful progress people passage.
Energy can be neither created or destroyed but passes through and between individuated local bodies.
Empathy and compassion with warm and cold heart metaphors suggest a flow valve open or closed.

Capacity for feeling coupled with space for being sharing expressions of experience living with time.
Never too old to Learn - Never too young to Teach -thankful for the Star that gives Life to everything.
Part of a circuit or loop of energetic vibration engaged sensory and extrasensory dimensional spectrum.

Shock over loss is a rupture in rhythm an unpleasant change of beat with what connects the body and the out of body sensation of balance and anticipation/expectation, not feeling right, not knowing why.
Perturbance in spatiotemporal patterns are modifiers triggering novelty responses along life's journey.

Emotional incontinence in frequency and amplitude in response to sensed pressure internal and external.
A dramatic relationship between Comedy and Tragedy as effective expressions of psychosomatic release.....................................................................................................................................................
                                                               and Timing.


I couldn't get much of what happened during the Outdoor vigil, my wife used her smart phone the next day to help me remember what the sister was saying about learning to drive that she got from her sister, HALT.
                                                          Hungry - Angry -Lonely-Tired

My wife also confirmed the identity of someone I spotted and pointed out to her as being an earlier acquaintance from a different school part of the expanding circles of the latest generation grown up now living on their own. Years go by and people change, none as fast as children, perhaps the biggest spiritual influence on My priestly pagan group practice with family friendly Our Whole Grove.
Witness the sharing of the waters of life and the loving nurturing, caring worship of the natural world.

Things had sunk in a bit more by the memorial, unaccompanied by our son, entering an unfamiliar church I managed a hug and simple condolence for her mother before sitting down and feeling the energies of the occasion, specifics assembled the uniqueness of the subjects' way of connecting people.

The room had a slideshow and photos to one side and a shrine central with cookies and tea on the other side, piano in back. Without obvious clergy present or leading things, the mother asked if anybody knew it and wanted could start chanting John Coltrane's- A Love Supreme.

The funny thing about grief and sorrow are the physical sensations located within the bodies of very different people in the same place in the same way. The heavy heart, chocked voice, wounded spirit.
Sensitivity to suffering seeming the strongest signal shared sympathy, showing respect, seeking peace.

Sometimes people can avoid the habit of recoiling from what is hurting by just being with it,
giving it a moment, feeling into it, with the best intentions and greater good in mind seek right relationship in imagined or expressed sensations and associations with what is uncomfortable to genuinely inform and learn how best to carry on. Painful lessons, bitter medicine, the fix or the cure is not pleasant and takes ......Time ......to work.

Energy of people feels much like the spirit of people to me. a capacity for expression in wave form with peaks and troughs an action or movement over time oscillating natural rhythmic patterns passing through the person.
Seems the same with any organism, or responsive system thing or place that is not fixed in a static form.

The Heart is the center of the resonant seeking being at the root of unconscious sensation.
Primordial pressure sensor adaptable relationship connector circulator of life force power to the person.

The Breath is associated with the spirit or soul because of the individuals' control of the inhale or exhale, with a common immediate sense of following a regular pattern of exchange with a nonphysical extradimensional unknown potential yet essential invisible world outside of the borders of our body. 

It felt right to include My offerings for her with mead sacrifice made at the next new moon ritual that is half of my Priestly practice spiritual nutritional supplement taken up regularly silently by myself. 
I know when I have been blessed. and am comfortable with this more private occasion to acknowledge Kindred Spirits and seek council with Ancient Wise and the Court of the Sky.
I took on the Priest title to qualify my ritually speaking out loud to other people and the action of seasonal holiday in ADF. that feels like an introverted/extroverted counterbalance of spiritual wave expression with passing cycles and frequencies connected to me and meaning, or better understanding.
I think...

Taking the mystery out of the mystery school-a not so secret society of anti-cult contra clique behavior in accessible public neo pagan religion =ADF!
Unlike the comfort and convenience of controlled environment and guided meditation my priestly arts are employed with improvising with uncontrolled elements and energies into a respectful appreciation and gratitude for what is.
What has gotten us this far.
Love for it, even at great distances can be felt.
Consciousness gives us relationship to frequency.
In Harmony with the land as continuum of Life and Death in concert and as conduit of the concord of spontaneous organization.
I think....

                                                          I won a T-shirt design contest for ADF,
                                                                                  at its center
                                                                            "Aged Forty Years"





 




Tuesday, January 2, 2024

swearing for sharing


 Do you swear to hear the truth? the whole truth? and nothing but the truth?

                                                    what?

Listening in a deeper and broader way enhances the receptive process of participating with this world.

This World, this Earth is where we are naturally from, where we naturally belong.

This should be no secret, there should be no shame or sin in acknowledging and showing respect and reverence for our shared planetary home Mother Earth the foundation and nurturer of life and death sustainer of caring, battery of love, whole ancient everchanging great giver of gifts to everybody and anything perpetuator of exchange nourishing growing regenerating cyclic basis of hosting others.

place of feelings of so many for so long

 resonant sphere

vibrating orb

spinning globe

interconnected body of beings that have been before building beings to be born.

blessing breathing beginning

spiritual conduit

soul connection

growing dimension

place of opportunity for so many for so long

where we are

 here and now

to honor the Gods and not gods

beings expressing kindness and sharing blessing to others.


Do you swear to feel the truth? the whole truth? And nothing but the truth?

                                 you can't


but you can feel the lies.


Tuesday, December 12, 2023

transmissions of sensations space signatures

shared space has an effect on shared reality and our expressions shared.
if you were ever there you would know what I mean.
signals

time and space combine with company.
immaterial and material things
location language regional dialects accents of places
undirected communication specialization taking place between living beings attempting to be understood.

 addressing another comes with a feeling.
long distance or collect by wire and cable.
a different way of connecting, talking to someone from a phone booth somewhere long ago.
how open and free or private and personal can the expression be.
the technology and the circumstances direct and magnify emphasis on uninterrupted messages.

prehistory in qualities of voice in traditional epic poetry,
spoken word live and recorded has different information and Soul transmission than silently read manuscripts, both available online a sensational experience to share.
feeling places resonant homes trails left behind related to the hearts of others.

Speaking from the Heart is more about being free to speak truth than extemporaneous self-expression.

Speculating about oral tradition and mythic prehistory is different in a published book,
 than a live zoom session with break out rooms and special social media group.
reactionary balderdash is a legitimate repeated popular refrain historically.
reproduced recorded review rewind remember responsibility reality introduced technologically.
recently replacing redundant rote memory ritual repetition reference to bypass hierarchies and create transparency for all.




close your eyes and imagine if you will,
augmented reality has made unexpected appearances in my domestic seasonal ritual activities.
audience members routinely record the live performances of artists to share as content on their social media platforms.
the space between our ears where we interpret sensation is a special place in our body.
personal feeling space that is touched by living and not living soulful expressions visited on the web.
Immaterial electronic information in individuated forms that carry with them a unique personal spirit.
Artificial things are not soul-less.

signals from the hearts              identity and location exposed.

time and space combine with company.
immaterial and material things
location language regional dialects accents of places
undirected communication specialization taking place between living beings and not living beings and entities and intelligences attempting to be understood or just hang out.










Thursday, November 23, 2023

transmigration of souls

The unique personal individual character essence described as Soul is the spiritual inhabitant of the physical body,

 yet we sense the presence of soul by the effects on its surrounding space,

 particularly the relationship with our own.
 


Possessions and private ownership are culturally passed concepts from people who lived and died before us.

In a limited materialist world where, only humans have Souls of spiritual value to share or sell the animating individual lifeforce is commodified packaged and labeled.



There is a connective linkage between souls that has nothing to do with memory.

Relationships exist beyond individual or collective minds capacity to understand.

Inherited packages of contents with impact upon the future world,

outside of intention knowledge or will.

Friday, November 10, 2023

underlife afterworld anymore anyway


 The Earth as we experience it is a band of minerals gasses and liquids energetically stimulated regularly repeatedly ritually by a nearby star the Sun and the orbiting changing (visibly)body of the Moon.

The turning Earth has one side facing into the Solar Wind experiencing the light and heat of Day.
The Moon is visible Day and Night on a different schedule with different qualities of Energy.
 Passed from different distant bodies to this one we are on.

Human observation and recording have been influenced by the most subtle energy of Star light in the changing night sky with its relationship to movement as the Solar Year
 time and change = cycles and circles.
This knowledge and practice taking place when most sleep and dream is based upon specific points of light their groupings and clusters embodying the silhouette of identifiable character with story to share,

Despite different languages and cultures heavenly directives informed worldly positioning and otherworldly influence from a common reference reverence a human feeling of   CERTAINTY.
People want something they can count on.
"IT" should be obvious and fast.
Light and Vision and Mind were elevated metaphorically and metaphysically as the conduit of understanding between inner world and outer world.

People and contemporary communication currents have emphasized the Quantitative Qualities of experience that we can measure and share,

the Qualitative Qualities of experience are not information for a rational calculating brain to put into words, but sensations.
Feelings are not thoughts or memories initially.
Judgement comes much later the UNCERTAINTY of stimulation initiates associations and meanings.
Responding to feelings over changing time different aspects and relationships unborn YGRENE
" IT" is without focus-without choice.
Dark and Emotional and unknowing the moist and fertile personal interior
 that is the LIFE EXPERIENCER!
it is not a lot of peace and quiet.

Before I am a death experiencer, I enjoy learning during my life experience.
part of that is trying to take it all in, but more important to not willfully forget or ignore lessons learned.
(Life Experience)
time and change and the changes in time.
Things to pass on
sharing Quality of Life nutrients feelings in the EARTH of the EARTH on the EARTH!

Tuesday, October 10, 2023

making meaning monster mulch



 the singular unified boundless all-knowing ever- present creator of all
--- is one way to see things.

most think/believe a variant of monotheism,

 some atheism 

a few find the gods and goddesses as limited differentiated family of beings.
 with identities and characters, bodies, homes that are separate from one another.

living within this intersection space with a different relationship with our time

primarily obsessed with their own interactions and business 

they do not exist to serve humankind.

they are not the creators of all that is.

some have the reputation of mixing it up with people.

often viewed as the source of extraordinary greatness 
passed on to the abilities of the living, here and now today.

 historically appealed to in pagan times  -  and now

just hoping to catch their attention and favor.

special cults develop around associated realms with various different deities and what expression they have inspired or are created in their names.
 as patrons of society and examples of the supreme authority in their field they have devotees, worshippers and followers who take on unique differentiated approaches and practices as well as appearance with the notion of mastery-control - order.

                                                 SECTARIAN
                                                 SPECIALIZATION
                                                 SEPARATION


---trade and thievery---                                                   ---arts and entertainment---
-- protection and justice--                                            --transportation and distribution--
                                              -healing and learning-
                                         -----banking and finance---


being able to buy low and sell high--
return on investment--
 extravagant blinders
ideal outcomes
simulated dreams
external blunders
factors fractions functioning formatively
it takes the inside world to make sense of the outside world
individually and collectively
 in groups and pattern distributions beyond our perception and awareness
suspended in reactionary fluid
Embodied 
Embedded 
Extended
Economically
Ecologically
Encapsulated
Spatiotemporal patterns
with contrast and coalescence
synchronisticaly oscillating
something



                                                 being among beings that have been.

Friday, September 1, 2023

space shared = reality shared

 There is a lot going on                                                                                                             I know 


it goes bye too quickly for me to try to get it all out of my head and onto paper to make any sense to anyone else.

Reality is thought of as what is real.

What is untrue is a large portion of what is shared as the realities of existence for every different thing.

Interpretation of the environment by beings with bodies with senses crafted by conditions of same environment,

Relationship exists amongst and between cedar and pine.
families of squirrel
herds of deer
place and position
pecking orders

Behaviors of individuals within groups and the group behaviors effect on the environment shared.

generation after generation
season and season
migration before migration
Life ways patterns passed on prophecies.
conflict crisis competition characterized imaginatively and differently as community expressions.

crickets and clover                                                                                             crayfish and crows

everything has rivalries and obstacles to their ambitions that are shared realities uniquely interpreted.

 even landscape painters
what is the best view?
what is included?
what size surface-canvas or paper?
how faithful are you to the subject?
why are you doing it?

everything has intentions and objections with their limited expressions in spatial reality shared.

even clouds and mountain springs.

a lot going on, I know,                                                                                                
shared here unfinished.
real
space